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Assalamualaikum wbt. Salam Barakah. Salam Ramadhan. 2 days to go, and Finals here we come! This one crazy and bubbly friend of mine was telling me that she’s exhausted as we’re walking back to dormitories after practising our OSCE in the CSC yesterday’s evening. “Awak, saya penat. Saya cuma nak cakap yang saya penat tu je. After all things happened masa sem ni. Saya rasa penat. This sem macam heavy sangat. Taktau nak cakap macam mana. Penat. Tu je” Dear Nfsyxh, For all the things happened to you, semua ada hikmah dan ada rahmat Tuhan  sebaliknya. You just don’t get to see it yet. Let’s just remember the little cute things you had together with your awesome buddies and all your loved ones. Little things are meant to stay longer than it seems. Retweet this if you agree Hahaaa ;) I’ve been in that place too last semester when I was hardly broken, stressed out and miserable and yes it WAS REALLY BAD it happened just before the examination season came approaching us like a ...

Assalamualaikum. Lama tak update kan? Sebab tengah sibuk mencari sumber kebahagiaan yang jitu dan yang takkan pernah mengecewakan. Sebab apa? Sebab aku nak bahagia lah. Nak disayangi sepanjang masa walau dimana aku berada. Kebahagiaan hakiki yang tak mungkin dipersiakan. Ya. Cari Tuhan! Aku admit lah sebelum ni aku rasa macam semua masalah aku ni menghimpit and it's suffocating me like no one has ever experience this. Gila lah aku rasa aku lah manusia yang paling serabut dengan masalah jiwa yang tak habis habis. (Erm. Rasa macam kena buat bipolar check-up ni) Sampai satu masa, aku rasa menyampah dengan diri sendiri.  "Kau rasa kau sorang je serabut? Kau rasa kau je susah? Kau rasa kau je yang sedih? Kau rasa kau je yang kecewa remuk redam hati tu ha? Kau rasa kau je ke yang bermasalah dalam dunia ni? Kau je ke yang hidup dalam dunia ni? Kau rasa kau sorang je yang sibuk nak melarikan diri dari masalah? Kau rasa kau je betul? Kau rasa kau je nak didengar? Kau ras...

Assalamualaikum and Hi! :) Today i went for a super cikai holiday. Last minute plan and main sauk je baju tudung semua. Pergi mana? Tadabbur alam. Me and my friends, we went hiking Bukit Keluang as early as 5.50 am. The hill was super quiet. I lead the way up to the top. Hua huaa. Serious cuak. Because we can't see things clearly. No guide, but only trees and ropes to hold on to. Got my torchlight to light my way, through the high hills cewahh and the darkness of the tropical jungle. Sejuk. Dingin. Dan gelap. Rasa sempit kiri kanan but the journey must go on. Sampai first puncak, we prayed. Subuh dah masuk masa kami mendaki. So lebih kurang 6.20 tu kami solat subuh tepi tebing puncak. Dah nampak ufuk yang merah. We waited and saw the sun rose beautifully. Subhanallah and i was about to cry, when I can't see anything yang memisahkan langit dan lautan. Bila matahari naik, you can see where the sun timbul dan it's shone the sea. Betapa indah ciptaan Tuhan! We continued o...

Assalamualaikum and Hi :) Hahaha now I'm telling you that how I almost forgotten the freedom of weekends. Hahaha asyik menyibukkan diri dengan community services sana sini every weekends. From health screening dekat villages sampai hospital, rumah kebajikan dan program university dalam kampus. REALLY I never had my weekends at my desasiswa for 6 weeks. Well done dearself! This is how the dentist taught the kids how to brush teeth correctly Medcial team in action! Tehee :))  These are a few pics of my activities on weekends. More pics in my lappy. But my lappy broke down. So yeah :)

It hurts so much to hold back tears. I'm missing My Abah but I can't tell my roomies. I can't share with them how much I miss My Abah because I know my life is already perfect with Abah's existence when they no longer have a dad to hold on to. Two friends, my roomies. Their dad's gone few years ago. I realized how perfect it is to hold a dad's hand when I have to one to share my frights and angers. I cried to know that Abah always had his side on me. He who always care and love me. He who never shy to show off his love for his son and daughters, for his parents, for his wife and her parents. He who never doubt to hug his son and daughter, and only God knows how much I miss my Abah. May Allah always protect Abah and Mama. I just want to tell "Saya rindu Abah" Hope to see Abah and Mama soon 😊

Assalamualaikum. Pernah terfikir kenapa ada perpisahan selepas pertemuan? Kenapa ada pertemuan selepas perpisahan? Macam tu jugak lah adanya kematian yang pasti untuk semua yang hidup dan adanya kehidupan selapas dibangkitkan dari kematian. See? Semua ada pasangannya. Indah sangat aturan Tuhan. Kehidupan vs Kematian. Dan sesungguhnya Allah dah pesan pada kita bahawa Dia ada kuasa mengeluarkan sesuatu yang hidup dari sesuatu yang kaku atau mati yakni janin yang belum ada nyawa di dalam rahim seorang ibu. Sehinggalah ditiupkan roh ke dalam jasad itu setelah siap segala sistem dan fungsi badan, jasad bernyawa itu lahir ke dunia meneroka alam. Tangis berbunyi. Disambut azan atau iqamat tanpa diiring solat oleh si bapa. Maka bermulalah tanggungjawabnya sebagai hamba dan khalifah muka bumi dalam erti kehidupan yang sementara. Bukan saja-saja Allah cipta dan atur kehidupan kita ni. Buat bekalan di alam baru nanti. Matinya nanti dimandikan, dikafankan dan disolatkan tanpa azan ma...

I am so pissed off when I'm around but you never see me, like I am a ghost? How about you talking with my best friend like I never had existed - yeah, I'm standing right next to her. What did I do wrong so much that you never talk to me? Just talk meh. Join the conversation. I joined the group conversation face-to-face but you never responded mine. I tried to talk to you and make you at ease, less stressful and at peace so that we can converse. But I got nothing. Thanks for making me look like a ghost and again, I don't know what did I do that you make me like this. Please. This is too awkward because it's been more than 4 months and IDK WHY! We're closed to each other and we talked comfortably, we friend with the same friends and we're friends for each other but you make me feel like this like I never existed in front of you? Sometimes I noticed your glare and stare but you avoid me. You walk beside me but never talk to me. We look at each other but we never ta...