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Brace yourself for this is a thread of a few unpublished posts.

Hi peeps. Lately I have been thinking a lot (more than usual) about my future and what is going on with my life. The life that circulates around me, of others' and my insecurities. I regard it everytime, as mysterious, unexpected, inexplicable and puzzling. Well, ikr everyone will think the same because nobody can oversee the future unless, you're born with it (like so many psychic people in the movies and dramas) or maybe you're good in fortune-telling. My instinct has been telling me that (I refuse to say 'my heart that has been telling me..' because it sounds so cheesy and eerie? I got goosebumps everytime. Duh) I might ended up single all my life because of my paranoid trait. I couldn't blame my genes because it is made up of the best pair and carry the best sets ever except for this one. Hehe. I am happy it has so many protective features and has literally providing me the best defense mechanism of all these 23 years of living. Of course, I won't ...

#throwback CFCS Pasir Mas

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December 6, 2018. I've been keeping this as a draft for almost 2 months. Hahah. Let me tell you that we have passed the Community and Family Case Study in Kampung Kubang Gendang & Kampung Kubang Keli situated in Pasir Mas. It was our credited course that every medical student on USM must pass, in order to graduate. A very nice program to approach villagers in spreading awareness based on our local studies and surveys a month before staying in the village. Our project theme was related to Dengue Fever; 'Adek Kakok Hoi, Jom Pleghak Aedes!' Here are some photos attached, showing our activities from September, until December 2018. Residency 3: Mural Drawing team at Tadika Kemas Clean the walls before mural-ing! (Oh it's raining btw) Residency 1: End of Presentation Persistent guys trying to show off their skills in kacau-ing bubur asyura Aedes breeding grounds! IDK how, but Pokjat never fails to entertain the kids Residen...

End of Semester 7 yo!

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Assalamualaikum and good evening. "A pleasant moment is meant to share with pleasant comrades" Spine team, hello! :)) I came across with this phrase, surely it's not a good one. Who cares btwww, I had finished my Semester 7 officially today! Just finishing the End of Semester 7 Examination yesterday, and I was, extremely relieved. Most of us had went back to their home. I wish I could, but once I got myself busy, I will definitely be one. Because I like challenges and I love embracing troubles (including mockings, condemns and a few other insults) like nobody wants it. Siapa je suka? But why not, trying to get in the games and see the patterns. It is always the same people who talks (bad/loudly) but never once trying to fit in others shoes. I would laugh, pity you for trying to get this kind of cheap attentions. Finishing orthopaedics and family medicine in semester 7, with 10 osce stations for Family Medicine, I almost gave up. Because of too many general and ...

That's too much!

Assalamualaikum and what a peaceful morning peeps! So I've been taking my time to post this since I was extremely busy with scheduled events, viva assessments, my logbook requirements and some other interesting people to deal with. Last weekend, I was officialy announced as the President/Yang Di-Pertua of Medical Science Society. It was an official inauguration done during our Annual Grand Meeting and Dinner. There, I'm now the first ever  female president of the great society history, comprising 600 members of all USM's medical student. That was the most anticipating moment of nervousness and I broke down into tears during the after event. I'm getting the soft spots and the spotlights, which I tried to avoid last time. In the mean time, I'm still trying to fit in and make myself secured. So that's it. Now let me tell you the 1st obstacle - I think I'm still traumatized by this. It happened yesterday. (Might have to anticipate some rojak here 😅) ...

Yes, you can.

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YDPs: (from left) Fikri, Aiman and WJ (eh?). I had always asked myself whether I deserved this or not. To be around amazing and excellent people, it has always been my dream. Never had I imagined my journey would be full of unexpected surprises. I had always anticipate surprises, but not this one. When I asked Muja, "Am I deserving this pose? I don't think I can. I am not doing this, I don't think I will" He said, 'Go for it Mira. You never know'. I sighed. Then I told Aini, "I am not qualified for this. A president? I don't do anything much to run for this election" She said, 'You can Mira. Inshaa Allah. Tough and long journey ahead, but you're strong more than you think'. I teared up, in silent. All I think was, I was never good enough to be a sole female president for the first time in MEDSOC's history. I was never better. All I did this while was, to listen and observe. I don't think I might run for a president ...

The life as we live in.

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Assalamualaikum and for another pleasant day, here we go. Today I met a young mom at 22 years old with her 2-months-old daughter at Klinik Kesihatan Wakaf Che Yeh, in a maternal and child health department. I used to come to the department every day because of the vibes and attractions there. The observing skill in me had brought me another perception of life, like we always know it all about.  Yes, she's 22 years old that makes me wonder how does she endure a married life at such a young age. Being a mother at 22, she's struggling to breastfeed her baby. I saw her trying to hold her baby in any comfortable means. I believe that her baby didn't had enough at that moment. Yet, she tried to make her baby burp. Then, a nurse came and told her to feed her baby more. It hasn't been long, just a 3 minutes session of breastfeeding in the corner and I was expecting her to keep on feeding her baby. I looked at her and she smiled. Not to ask where her husband is at that ...

We change.

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Hello peeps, Assalamualaikum! The only word I could say after a super long break from blogging is, I AM BACK. Not to mention if it is gonna be for any good or any worse after this. Okay, done. Actually I am a bit _blank_ not to mention my awkwardness right now, typing in the public zone where everyone can take a glance and read whatever I'm typing now. Duh! Okay, it's midnight and it still is raining heavily outside the window. The darkest sky and the gray clouds, obviously la there's no moon and stars to be seen now kan. (shrug the shoulder). Lately, I've been immersed into somebody's life. I'm trying to act pretentious and act like I know everything when I don't. That is not how I should be. But, it gave me some insights about what are the thoughts and decisions they might come to at the end of the day. Little that I know, I can be like everyone else, just 'follow to flow' and just do whatever they decide for me to do. Hm. That is dangerous s...