Alohomora

Semenjak dua tiga menjak ni rasa kurang dalam hati. Kosong dan penuh benci. Kenapa ek? Puas aku fikir nak cari jawapan. Jawapan yang terkeluar biasanya sebab marah, benciiiiiii dan geram tak sudah. Semua tu punca dari marah lah senang cerita. So apa yang marah sangat ni??? Tak faham. Ye. Aku lagi tak faham kenapa aku nak marah. Kenapa marah?? Nak marah siapa?! Pehal marah sangat ni woi?! Geram kot!!! Dah kenapa nak marah marah?!! Jawapannya, heartbroken. Heartbroken lagi. Dan lagi. Lagi dan lagi. Solusi: ambik wudhu, nak. Maafkan orang lain seadanya walaupun mereka tak sedar khilaf mereka. Mengalah dan redha dengan ketentuan-Nya kerana Allah provides better plan for us.

Hujung minggu lepas, a neighbour of my friends' room nikah. Well, she's a senior obviously. A health science student. Siap jemput datang Walimah dia. The best part is, akak tu cerita macam mana dia boleh setuju nak kahwin dengan husband dia. Their first meeting was during kenduri kahwin abang kepada akak tu. So senang cerita, husband dia tu a friend of her brother. Just kenal kenal macam tu, as a sister of the groom masa tu. Till one day, the husband tanya kawan dia tu, (a.k.a abang kepada akak tu) pasal nama and some basic details about her. Dah alang-alang tu, get her phone number terus lah kan. Hahaha. Perkenalan yang ringkas dan mudah. Send sms kepada akak tu dan terus introduce nama dan a few basic details yang penting. The husband dah kerja. Means, he's stable economically. Well, that's a quite important thing that most women will look up to in finding a spouse. Haha. But it depends. I said, depends on the situation and their personal preferences. Apa yang m...

Dah lama tunggu towards the end of December. Hahaha and finally I'm 20. Yeayy. So am I supposed to be happy? Lol. So apa nak cerita? Pasal celebrations. The clock stroke 12.00 midnight and there I was kidnapped from Nurani Café to the roadside. Siapa punya plan lah ni buat prank tepi jalan (Ooppss!). Malu oii. Kesian sesiapa yang kena dukung I bawak tepi simpang masuk desasiswa. Dahla in the middle of midnight group discussion pasal Pneumonia dengan Hanif and Fisya. Rupanya Hanif dengan Fisya collaborate dengan the Ladies Ahak for the prank. Hahaha baik punya plan >.< So macam biasalah kena simbah air, ditepek tepung berbungkus bungkus dan yang paling tak menariknya bila dibaling telur. Busuk baq hang! Dahla sweater kuning aku jadi mangsa keadaan. Haishh anak anak ni. Kalau nak prank, make sure bagitau dulu. Eh? At night, my roommies and Naimah treated me for a Western dinner at Lugano Kubang Kerian. Yeah. Makan free beb! Waffles and Spaghetti. On Saturday, Migui ...

The only thing I can do at that moment was screaming. "Panas! Ya Allah, panas!!! Panas!!!!" Yes. A mug of hot Nestum solution just poured like a mountain on my right thigh, splashed to my ankle and the back of my right arm. And I was scared that the mug might fall on my feet. All I could do was standing still and close my ears with both of my hands. I don't want to hear that thing fall on my feet and I never want to see what's in front of me. My roommates were all shocked and they just screamed while rushed to the toilet to get a bucket of cold water for a quick remedial on the burn areas. Yes. First aid. As I was screaming and panicking like I don't know what to do but my thoughts were all about hunger and the mug. I was in a great hunger last night, I thought of having a mug of hot Nestum and some biscuits. The mug, luckily it didn't fell on my feet. My other roommate was helping me out by giving me a towel. She told me to remove my pants and quickly r...

Voila. It's been a week since I've been trying hard to give myself some spaces that I hope it could save me from the bad thoughts. Quickly, I cheated my mind, mimicking something to distract myself from thinking negatively. I don't know how did it happen. Even more how does this happen. Alas, for now. To be neglected by a person who means a lot, it hurts. I know right. It is even scarred to not know why, the reasons to be neglected. Must have asked earlier what happened and what is happening now. At least, a trace of conversation would mend a broken relationship. Sometimes, we tend to ignore the little conversation we had, but later it trapped you in a situation where you just need to have a glance at the past! How cruel. Well at least, say something. Honestly. Alhamdulillah. He choose me to test my patience. And that is a great thing we always belittled in our life. Have we appreciate it? The reasons of living. p/s And oh, i have lovely persons by my side to...

It's been 2 months. Eyy, more than 2 months. "to stand strong wherever you are" Apa khabar kamu semua kesayangan beta di Belgaum, India? Kami bertiga rindu kalian yang amat. Just where are my teasing partners??? Orang yang paling selalu kacau hidup saya when I messed up with mood swings. She's Aida. They who love to lepuk saya kalau cakap mengarut atau terlalu annoying. They who will warn me to not forget things such as my own belongings sebab Amirah Farhana ni clumsy selalu. Mereka yang suka puji saya secara tak langsung, I know you girls are missing my 'annoyance' dan kejujuran saya dalam berkata-kata. And the same time akan buli saya, like I am too young to not know what you girls are discussing about. I know that girls, Yaya, Fasha, Husna, Marina, Madhihah, Wani, Piya, Nadira, Filzati, Wawa. Sekarang ni Wawa je suka lepuk I sana sini. Kalau nak tegur and remind me in direct pun Wawa and Migui jelah yang selalunya. Hikhik. Sometimes, saya rasa macam W...

Well, hi :) Welcome to Kelantan Darul Naim, reporting 330kms away from home. Kayy, sedih lah sangat dok? Breaking into new chapter, and i've been welcomed to PPSP USM Health Campus, Kubang Kerian. Wondering what PPSP is about? It's Pusat Pengajian Sains Perubatan. Meh, I'm just scrolling the chapters that will be taught soon. Expressionless, macam biasa. The moment I arrived here, feel dia macam ada dekat negara orang. Cause you know Kelantan is very different. The implementation of Islamic Law and a lot of kindnesses. Not that l wanna say that negeri lain tak bagus, it's just they are really warm and they would never mind to welcome you to their house without any preparations lah like kemas kemas and so on.  One thing about staying in USM is, mingling with the students of different races and cultures! Well, it's really my first time mixing and laughing with some chinese and indian friends. One of my new chinese friend, i tell you, she really loves talking. Sh...