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Hi peeps. Lately I have been thinking a lot (more than usual) about my future and what is going on with my life. The life that circulates around me, of others' and my insecurities. I regard it everytime, as mysterious, unexpected, inexplicable and puzzling. Well, ikr everyone will think the same because nobody can oversee the future unless, you're born with it (like so many psychic people in the movies and dramas) or maybe you're good in fortune-telling. My instinct has been telling me that (I refuse to say 'my heart that has been telling me..' because it sounds so cheesy and eerie? I got goosebumps everytime. Duh) I might ended up single all my life because of my paranoid trait. I couldn't blame my genes because it is made up of the best pair and carry the best sets ever except for this one. Hehe. I am happy it has so many protective features and has literally providing me the best defense mechanism of all these 23 years of living. Of course, I won't ...

December 6, 2018. I've been keeping this as a draft for almost 2 months. Hahah. Let me tell you that we have passed the Community and Family Case Study in Kampung Kubang Gendang & Kampung Kubang Keli situated in Pasir Mas. It was our credited course that every medical student on USM must pass, in order to graduate. A very nice program to approach villagers in spreading awareness based on our local studies and surveys a month before staying in the village. Our project theme was related to Dengue Fever; 'Adek Kakok Hoi, Jom Pleghak Aedes!' Here are some photos attached, showing our activities from September, until December 2018. Residency 3: Mural Drawing team at Tadika Kemas Clean the walls before mural-ing! (Oh it's raining btw) Residency 1: End of Presentation Persistent guys trying to show off their skills in kacau-ing bubur asyura Aedes breeding grounds! IDK how, but Pokjat never fails to entertain the kids Residen...

Assalamualaikum and good evening. "A pleasant moment is meant to share with pleasant comrades" Spine team, hello! :)) I came across with this phrase, surely it's not a good one. Who cares btwww, I had finished my Semester 7 officially today! Just finishing the End of Semester 7 Examination yesterday, and I was, extremely relieved. Most of us had went back to their home. I wish I could, but once I got myself busy, I will definitely be one. Because I like challenges and I love embracing troubles (including mockings, condemns and a few other insults) like nobody wants it. Siapa je suka? But why not, trying to get in the games and see the patterns. It is always the same people who talks (bad/loudly) but never once trying to fit in others shoes. I would laugh, pity you for trying to get this kind of cheap attentions. Finishing orthopaedics and family medicine in semester 7, with 10 osce stations for Family Medicine, I almost gave up. Because of too many general and ...

Assalamualaikum and what a peaceful morning peeps! So I've been taking my time to post this since I was extremely busy with scheduled events, viva assessments, my logbook requirements and some other interesting people to deal with. Last weekend, I was officialy announced as the President/Yang Di-Pertua of Medical Science Society. It was an official inauguration done during our Annual Grand Meeting and Dinner. There, I'm now the first ever  female president of the great society history, comprising 600 members of all USM's medical student. That was the most anticipating moment of nervousness and I broke down into tears during the after event. I'm getting the soft spots and the spotlights, which I tried to avoid last time. In the mean time, I'm still trying to fit in and make myself secured. So that's it. Now let me tell you the 1st obstacle - I think I'm still traumatized by this. It happened yesterday. (Might have to anticipate some rojak here 😅) ...

YDPs: (from left) Fikri, Aiman and WJ (eh?). I had always asked myself whether I deserved this or not. To be around amazing and excellent people, it has always been my dream. Never had I imagined my journey would be full of unexpected surprises. I had always anticipate surprises, but not this one. When I asked Muja, "Am I deserving this pose? I don't think I can. I am not doing this, I don't think I will" He said, 'Go for it Mira. You never know'. I sighed. Then I told Aini, "I am not qualified for this. A president? I don't do anything much to run for this election" She said, 'You can Mira. Inshaa Allah. Tough and long journey ahead, but you're strong more than you think'. I teared up, in silent. All I think was, I was never good enough to be a sole female president for the first time in MEDSOC's history. I was never better. All I did this while was, to listen and observe. I don't think I might run for a president ...

Assalamualaikum and for another pleasant day, here we go. Today I met a young mom at 22 years old with her 2-months-old daughter at Klinik Kesihatan Wakaf Che Yeh, in a maternal and child health department. I used to come to the department every day because of the vibes and attractions there. The observing skill in me had brought me another perception of life, like we always know it all about.  Yes, she's 22 years old that makes me wonder how does she endure a married life at such a young age. Being a mother at 22, she's struggling to breastfeed her baby. I saw her trying to hold her baby in any comfortable means. I believe that her baby didn't had enough at that moment. Yet, she tried to make her baby burp. Then, a nurse came and told her to feed her baby more. It hasn't been long, just a 3 minutes session of breastfeeding in the corner and I was expecting her to keep on feeding her baby. I looked at her and she smiled. Not to ask where her husband is at that ...

Hello peeps, Assalamualaikum! The only word I could say after a super long break from blogging is, I AM BACK. Not to mention if it is gonna be for any good or any worse after this. Okay, done. Actually I am a bit _blank_ not to mention my awkwardness right now, typing in the public zone where everyone can take a glance and read whatever I'm typing now. Duh! Okay, it's midnight and it still is raining heavily outside the window. The darkest sky and the gray clouds, obviously la there's no moon and stars to be seen now kan. (shrug the shoulder). Lately, I've been immersed into somebody's life. I'm trying to act pretentious and act like I know everything when I don't. That is not how I should be. But, it gave me some insights about what are the thoughts and decisions they might come to at the end of the day. Little that I know, I can be like everyone else, just 'follow to flow' and just do whatever they decide for me to do. Hm. That is dangerous s...

Assalamualaikum! Yesterday's trip was the best with these fellas that I thought I would regret for not coming to Kina's house in Tanah Merah. And the little friend we celebrated yesterday, Little Hana! Hana Turns 1 :) little girl got her present from Uncles and Aunties :)) Hana and her smiles. I fall hard for this little girl. And I even wonder how does it feel to have my own niece/nephew? Haha. (Later kay) Thanks Kina and Family for having us yesterday and for the small feast, making us feel like home :') When you're looking like that // 'Aunties ni nak apa?' Road Trip Ohana That uncle --, At the so-called Masjid Beijing, Rantau Panjang

Zu: Korang gali apa ni? Us: Ada orang nak membuang dalam ni Shuk tolak Zu masuk lubang. Zu: Laa, kenapa tak cakap awal. Aku memang nak kena tanam ni. Ha meh meh tanam aku. Us: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOL DIA MEMANG TUNGGU RUPANYAA Happy 21st Birthday Ajuju! Semoga dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki, dilimpahkan ilmu yang luas dan diberkati Allah sampai bila bila. Haha. Tu je lah yang cliché. Hadiah kitorang cuma percutian sepetang, semalam di Pantai Telong, Bachok sebab kitorang tau kau craving nak mandi laut sebulan yang lepas lagi. Dah masuk air tu tak reti dah nak naik ke darat ye, Butler --, Selamat dah Our private beach: Credits to Sha's Family :) Ni pun nak jugak :o 3 dah bahagia. Lagi 2 bahagiakan diri sendiri dengan makbapak je ;P Goodluck for PRO exam ni. Sama-sama tarik kalau lost. (20/04/2017) PRO: 2nd July 2017 EOS: 4th June 2017 p/s Hm. Fikir-fikirkan lah

Assalamualaikum! Now I am back with good news. A VERY GOOD ONE! :D Girls in Manhattan :p It is good to reconcile and talk again girls! Alhamdulillah all praises for Him, for all the blessings and hardships we've been through all these months. I would say that it's been a month since we last talked so much on everything. And now here I am writing the stories about you girls. I am overload with joys to be able to talk and laugh. For our past mistakes, I ought to forgive and somehow it took times for me to make myself clear about what had happened to our friendship previously. I was confused by my actions and intentions. I always want to look cool for everyone but I forget those in need of my help and my attention. I was too busy taking care of other physical and material things before taking care about what the you girls might be feeling at the hard times. I forgot the empathy and sensitivity part that I thought everyone would just act and look at such problems the way I ...

Back then, I thought I knew where I stand all this while. But now, I know where I should stand, who should I be with and when should I move whenever sincerity and trustworthy being questioned. I guess now I am ready to lose even more. The further I go, the more friends I lose. The higher I climb, the lesser sincerity left in me. The greater I become, the smaller trust I build in me. I should always be there. Around them, but never been asked. Around them, but never asked. Around them, but It never feel the same anymore. Around them, but the atmosphere is different. Now, where should I go? Around and keep coming around? Maybe I should go vertically (up-and-down) now. Haha. Because that way I won't cause more damage and harm. For someone who keep on losing, should never lose One. One who always give and One who take in less than second. For one person, you build me up. For another person, you teach me to never give up. For the next person, you cheer me up. Diamond is cre...

Well, haha! Hi. Macam biasa. Masih hambar. But now I know I can joke around and I just discovered a side talent of me. I called it a talent la - lawak hambar. It happened when I always have fries, burgers, ice-creams and apples as my lock-screen wallpaper. There some of my friends told me that they were hungry and I would gladly offer my phone. "Nah. There you go" "Lawak sia." "Lapar kan?" "Tak lawak lah Mira" "I'm trying to make it look funny hehe" "K" "Tolongla gelak. Please :(" "Haha. Haha." "K. Rakluu" "Woiii hahahahahaha hambar!!!" I know it. Tolong la gelak  -.- Feed your hunger? --,

One day to go before the real battle starts. I've had my muscle aching, back ache, head ache, hand tremors, and.. When some friends and seniors I had accidentally met at the cafe, really told/asked me, "You've lost lots of facial expression meh" "Heyy PBL leader, emotionless nya!" "Are those eyebags?" "Oh my, Miraa I saw your eyes" "Mira, tidur tak?" "Patutlahh, bawah mata tu kelabu je gayanya" The struggle is pain. Maybe I should treat myself some sleeps and movies later. And the eyebags too ;( p/s: I blogged so much because I am feeling stressful to finish off the last chapters!

Assalamualaikum and hey, today is Mama's birthday. She's approaching 50's now and I realized how fast time flies by. (*inserts cliché wish/words/captions) I wish for her health, long-live and all the blessings from Almighty. May Mama always be in the sight and care of Him. May Allah grant her paradise and long-lasting love. May she always be the best Mama we (all three messy child) all ever had. And of all, Mama is irreplaceable. I called her this morning, Abah answered her phone. And I asked him right away to Mama first. He wished Mama and then pass the phone to Mama. I was in the examination cubical, waiting for the first year student to come into the cubical for OSCE session with me (I am the examiner). It was a Mock OSCE for the juniors as a preparation before their real examination. Huhu, no point abt telling this further. So, then I wished her (*inserts cliché wish) and I don't know what else to say other than Happy 40+ Birthday, my beloved Mama! She went li...

There came a patient on a very gloomy kind of rainy day, Patient: Dr, sayo sekok ni. Tokse nyawo doh ni Future Dr: Parok ni. Ubat tokse make Study weeks' drama. So much things in the head and it keeps on compressing the brain. Too many neurones cannot be rescued, super-chaos gray matter and lagging white matter. Revealing the bare axons without sheath, the transmission getting slow and slower by day, tensing and more stress factors on axons, macrophage come and attack the antigens and, poomm!! There, stranded. Suffocating. Been in touch with gravity, but still seems floating without a pace. Sipping caffeine by tins and cups. Hoping for dopaminergic inactivation. Through another sleepless nights. Darkening pimples and surrounded shady eyes. Burning and pressing gastric body. Bursting headache and it's throbbing, always. Faded only with sleeping. Nevertheless, the sleeping pills ever known, Robbins', Langman's, Abbas', Hoffbrand's, Dorland...

“Get yourself a woman who can do both” *inserts picture of a woman with sports attire and the woman in baju kurung with make-up* For me, this is septicism. Guys, there are lot more women who can do not just both, but multiple than what you’ve been thinking about! (like moms) Be real, because a woman is real. Haha! Some woman who can fix leaking pipes, tukar mentol lampu and fix broken printers more than anyone can, tapi sayang some of us really matter about looks. Asalkan lawa je, viral! And ladies, there are lot more to discover about ourselves, stand up and be confident for who you are! p/s: Nowadays with so many viral things around when it is not supposed to be (some jokes, really). Can everyone live in peace?

Belajar tu belajar jugak. Society pun society jugak. Kerja tu kerja jugak. Pergi sana pergi sini macam macam hal lah. Tapi keluarga dan kawan tu jangan lupa. “Because they’re always be by your side, and your backbone” (Siapa entah yang bagi quote ni. Lupa dah. Baru nak give credits. Huhu) Yes. Tak dapat nak deny hidup as pelajar perubatan ni memang tak tentu arah. Serabut macam rambut tersekat dekat sikat (ke aku sorang je?). Dari bangun tidur sampai nak lelap. Ada ada aje kertas kerja, surat yang terfikir kena buat and submit dekat BHEPA. Belum campur lecture notes yang belum sempat cover selepas 3 hari, belum sempat tatap habis-habis dan belum sempat dapat penghayatan sampai lumat dalam otak. Belum cukup rencah dan perisa kalau tak buat pre-reading dan post-reading untuk kasi lekat dalam otak. Sindrom yang tercipta bila buka buku Robbins ialah SMT, Sindrom Mata Layu. Post-it-notes bertepek atas meja, dekat info board. Kertas kesan highlighter kuning dan pink, hijau dan ore...

There goes this conversation between me and Wawa. We were tip-toeing in the rain to get our Dominos Pizza about 1 km away from my block. Frankly because: First, we wanna celebrate Migui's birthday Second, we wanna eat because we were damn hungry Third, because we wanna walk and enjoy the rain Fourth, we wanna talk to each other after a super-long-tiring day "The perks of having a busy Bestfriend" - Wawa's thought. I broke through her mind, all the time. We arrived and ordered a large pizza. Worth buying for me, Wawa and Migui and someone tulaa. So while waiting, we came out with this conversation. (btw I tried to recap whatever we're talking over at that time) Wawa: Semalam kan, H dengan F kantoi busuk ah dengan saya dating dekat cafe kot (laugh) Me: Seriously? Dah open lah maksudnya tu? Wawa: Lawak gila. Tapi baguslah H dengan F tu. Comel je dua orang tu Me: Hmmm (loooooongggg sighhhhhh) -silent moment- Me: Wa, tahun depan kita dah 22 tau. 22 ye...

"1 tahun ada berapa hari?" "Tak tauuuuuu cikguuuuuuu" "1 tahun ada 365 hari atau 366 hari pada tahun lompat" "Lompat? Tahun lompat ke cikggguuu?" "Adehh masak nak menjawab" "Cikguu 365 hari ke 366 hari?" Setakat tu saja yang aku dengar tadi. Macam mana nak terangkan budak darjah 1 atau darjah 2 pasal tahun lompat? This is part of the challenge sebagai cikgu. Maybe cikgu matematik pun kena banyak extra knowledge about astronomy? But this is somewhat irony when a student ask a lecturer/teacher about his doubts about a topic. "Yang ni awak tak perlu tahu. This is not in your syllabus somehow" I, somehow terfikir that maybe teachers won't want to let us know sebab nanti student akan jadi lagi pandai dari cikgu/lecturer. But i realize that all the questions are supposed to become our homework. Adult learning process is different than learning process masa sekolah rendah dan sekolah menengah. In university...